I'm tired of being the side chickIn your one click lifeWhere theres no treats, just tricksLikeHaving me spend the night as ifLicking, kissing, and huggingMeant we were thugging it out togetherI guess I was just missingThe immanent weatherThat would sever all hopesOf sturdily walking the tight ropesOr whatever it took to impressYouA plight I'd guess [...]
I was swallowed by his handsOvertakenBruised till I was blandYet I still made the baconAnd I still washed the pansI was ready to take onAll his fairytale plansBut he drank all my contents, goneLike his empty beer cansOr a state fair stuffed python-Because he had won, and conquered meJust to have left my body on [...]
I dissociateAnd think about dyingWithout any control,S'pose there's no use in denyingTheres a hole in my soul.I say I'm happy, but I'm lying(And digging deeper holes)Cause I still hear him sighing-As if I stoleHis happiest days,Even though all he does is scrollAnd give other girls praise;It's me, I robbed him ofHis, "hoe phase."But he made [...]
It's a peculiar loneliness,Spreading likeAn unwelcomed guest.And I ride my bike,As I try to digestHow is it possible, that he loved me lessThan I thought-(When I didn't think he loved me at all)Turns out, I couldn't be boughtAnd I don't answer when they call,Not with my stomach in knotsAnd its contents smeared down the hall.Still [...]
The cuts on my legsAre from his begging dogs digging jaws,And unsuccessful kegStands.And maybe I shouldn't have let his pawsLandOnMy hands,Who've goneAnd rummaged through-Something much to sweet toLeave unfinished.But I claimed that seat tooLate to reside in it,(Or have it)And even though I swore it was him, and my habitsWreaking havocOn my habitual way of [...]
I shivered under his coversAfter hot basement nights,Knowing I'd never love anotherThere'd be no greater plightThan him, the life of the party.And instead of chewing my mouth cheeksI should've begged him to love me-(But I'm nothing but my anxiety)And my hands were on the car keys,Because his phone was at an angle.Maybe I'm not the [...]
"Because I love you,I cannot believe in love."Afterall,He'd asked me to leaveThat final fall night.I should've asked him what didn't feel right,I should've asked him if I could stayBut I knew my answers.(Somehow, someway)He was a big, big thingThat I wanted to crawl inside-Cocoon, and become as beautiful asHis sun driedSkin;S'pose it was impossible to [...]
My mom saidCleanYour headOf teenAge dread-(She didn't tell me how)But I was deadSet on,Being ledAnd drawnTowards his bed(Though he yawns)Hes fed intoMy eonsOf bluePain,So blueMy veinsHave changed their hue-But they stainHim much too much toRemainCleanAnd still he claimsIt meansNothing, as he aimsFor the door.
LestIDetestByCardiac arrest;MyCompressedFeelings will pryMy already dressedEyesWide open.Then I'll truly die-Still soap inMy mouth, so dryFor all the words left unspokenAnd this guy,Who's bespoken(Cherry pie)And I am heartbrokenFor I cannot buyHimOr occupyAny spot so similar,To him in my mind.
In dim lightWe recordedBlack and whiteContortedNonsenseAnd we were elatedOr not, sinceWe never really dated-